Random Rants

I think it is interesting that I take care of old people for a living.. a CNA, an assistant who takes orders from licensed nurses. The lowest in the nursing field. My job is looked down upon by some of my relatives. They definitely forget that I understand Tagalog.. really good.

“She is just trying to be like her mom.”
“That career has no future.”
and worse I’ve heard..
“That is very disgusting because she only cleans people for a living. How degrading.”

There is more to what I do than that. Even I don’t even view my job like that!

It makes me sad that people in my own blood line look down on what I do. What difference does it fucking make that an aspiring nurse decided to work as a CNA first as oppose to someone who works in retail and also pursuing nursing? They clearly don’t know that a CNA job is the basic nursing skills.. What I learn and experience as a CNA is going to benefit the career I want for myself.

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I do not have any talents to show nor anything else that I am good at.. If they only know how my mind works, this is something that makes up for everything else I’m lacking about myself. If I didn’t become a CNA, I’ll be really lost in pursuing nursing. I wouldn’t be able to see the kind of nurse I want to be.., or see the kind of person I want to be… even if that takes a lifetime of building.

I don’t want to be a waste of space and just take in free air without doing anything significant to be proud of someday..

I don’t ever want to think like how they do.