Random Rants

- I’m quite pleased at my school performance. It is not the best, but I’m making time to study and understand the material. If I do bad, I try to understand what I really did bad on.

- A patient whipped me (just once though) with her call light yesterday. That shit was painful and it was tough to force a smile and ensure her that I am not a “drug dealer” who will sell something to her room mate.

- My clinical group was chosen to do clinicals in a psych ward. I understand that I do encounter mental health problems (dementia is common at my work), but I do not think I would want to work in a psych ward. I’d rather choose hospice and deal with palliative care. Looking at patient charts about how these psych patients got their illness and the people they were before is just so heart-wrenching.

But I do want to be flexible in my career, but I guess psych will be one of my last resort.. if ever. Haha.

- This nursing career and traveling are some of the few things that actually keeps my life afloat. I’m pretty sick of some people who constantly tell me that I’m “no fun”. I don’t need to be reminded that I am not good at a lot of things. I don’t have a specific talent like.. drawing, I can’t sing, I have no athletic abilities, no creativity etc.. but that is really no way to judge how my life is. That person is just an outsider trying to look inside my life. 

I am happy because I finally found something to live for. It is not anything bizarre, but it does affect my personal growth.